When Trauma Meets Goodness

Trauma needs you to know that shadowy monsters are hiding in every corner of your dreams. Don’t get too cozy with a good feeling, because Trauma is trying to warn you that you’re going to be suddenly struck by a meteor. Trauma’s favorite tv show is looney tunes, because it loves to show you over and over again that in any given moment, you and your loved ones will be crushed by a giant anvil from the sky. Trauma whispers in your ear that as long as your heart desperately prepares for The Bad Thing to Happen (because inevitably it will) it’ll sting a little less (it won’t).

Trauma is deeply uncomfortable and bewildered when it meets Goodness- the bright moments that don’t fit perfectly into our tightly constructed, dark n’ twisty narrative.  Goodness wants us to know that actually, sometimes it’s okay to be present with what’s right here in front of you. Its more than just okay, it can actually be more connected to reality and the most sensible option sometimes. Goodness invites us to *allow* - allow life to sparkle for us when it craves to. To allow ourselves to savor and melt into that heart to heart hug, belly aching case of the giggles, that soft and slow kiss, those juicy happy tears, the dance off under the stars and fireflies. Goodness wants Trauma to know that there is so, so much more to this life than only our pain. 

I’m trying to internalize this message about holding both suffering and joy and all that’s in between. ((The full rangeeee)) We are all so deserving of this and sometimes it’s hard for me to fully receive this knowledge. Darkness and Grief are my life long buddies, but sometimes relationships need to evolve and we also need different friends for different needs. And in this particular moment in time, for now until the next, I pledge to let Goodness take the stage. Meet us there.